6/23/11
Excite!
I am that! Can't sleep. Too excite! YAAAAAAAY! Gonna be a total zombie later, but that doesn't matter cause I'm excite now!
6/20/11
Respect
Alright. I used to mock my ex-girlfriend for going to cosmotology school. I mean, that shit can't be too hard right? Apparently I was wrong. So, so wrong. I apologize ex-girlfriend. Yours is a noble profession I have no talent for. Ah well. Hair grows back, I'll just wear a hat until then. Yeah...
Hahaha...ha
Nearly gave myself a heart attack just now. So, I was playing with some chewing gum just now. I blew a huge bubble, biggest I've made in a while. It was like, bigger than my face. Out of the corner of my eye I saw the bubble's reflection in the window. The big, round white reflection in the window. It also happened to line up with a dark shape outside the window. My heart. Fucking. Stopped.
Of course, it turned out to be nothing. Anyway, minor stupidity induced scares aside, I am super excite! Why? Because. :3
Of course, it turned out to be nothing. Anyway, minor stupidity induced scares aside, I am super excite! Why? Because. :3
6/15/11
Graduation day
Today was my younger sister's graduation. I had to miss it for obvious reasons. The main one being the fact that I'm not in the state.
In addition to my younger sister, Amelia would have been graduating today. If not for all this. I know I can never make what happened to her right, and I couldn't help Stormy when she needed it. All in all, I'm fairly useless. But I suppose there's not much I can do about it now, is there? I'll just have to keep moving forward. Figuratively.
In addition to my younger sister, Amelia would have been graduating today. If not for all this. I know I can never make what happened to her right, and I couldn't help Stormy when she needed it. All in all, I'm fairly useless. But I suppose there's not much I can do about it now, is there? I'll just have to keep moving forward. Figuratively.
6/8/11
Hmph.
Welp. Today's the day. Two hours ago EST I turned twenty. I'm not telling you all this as a way to fish for birthday wishes. That kind of stuff doesn't matter to me.
You know, I never was one for birthday celebrations and the like. I always figured they were pointless. Big deal, I managed not to die for a whole nother year. Go me. After everything that's happened it actually seems like an accomplishment. So... go me.
I just guess what I'm trying to say is, for all the bad this shit brings it helps you appreciate the good a little more. Not that appreciating the good will do us much good in the end. Well, aren't I little miss sunshine today?
Get off my lawn.
You know, I never was one for birthday celebrations and the like. I always figured they were pointless. Big deal, I managed not to die for a whole nother year. Go me. After everything that's happened it actually seems like an accomplishment. So... go me.
I just guess what I'm trying to say is, for all the bad this shit brings it helps you appreciate the good a little more. Not that appreciating the good will do us much good in the end. Well, aren't I little miss sunshine today?
Get off my lawn.
6/4/11
Argh.
Alright, well for whatever reason it's not letting me comment on my own blog, so I guess I'll just have to do a real post because apparently my failures are really fucking interesting to you people. Jerks.
Anyway, here's how it is. Remember that secret admirer I mentioned? The one who was giving me flowers? Well, he/she/it never stopped. I've been trying to catch that motherfucker in the act for weeks now, but no dice. I don't understand how that shithead keeps getting by me. As far as I know I'm not losing time. And s/he/it knows things about me that nobody could. I mean, it's one thing to guess my favorite flower, but some of these gifts... It's just getting really out of hand. I haven't been able to catch so much as a glimpse of whoever's doing it either. It's really starting to tick me off.
Between that asshat and Stormy not coming out to play, I'm not having a very triumphant return.
You guys are better at this kind of thing than I am. Any ideas on how to make sure I'm not losing time without realizing it?
Anyway, here's how it is. Remember that secret admirer I mentioned? The one who was giving me flowers? Well, he/she/it never stopped. I've been trying to catch that motherfucker in the act for weeks now, but no dice. I don't understand how that shithead keeps getting by me. As far as I know I'm not losing time. And s/he/it knows things about me that nobody could. I mean, it's one thing to guess my favorite flower, but some of these gifts... It's just getting really out of hand. I haven't been able to catch so much as a glimpse of whoever's doing it either. It's really starting to tick me off.
Between that asshat and Stormy not coming out to play, I'm not having a very triumphant return.
You guys are better at this kind of thing than I am. Any ideas on how to make sure I'm not losing time without realizing it?
6/3/11
6/2/11
Can't sleep
I couldn't sleep at all last night. Only makes sense I suppose. I had random bouts of insomnia before this whole thing started. I'm sure that with everything going on it will only get worse. Anyway, I'm sorry if I worried you all. I figured it would be best to lay low for a while. You understand I'm sure.
To be honest, I was going to try and phase myself out of all this. I figure I pose almost no threat anymore. I can't run anymore. Honestly, I'm one of the more useless among us. I'm amazed I made it as long as I have. Anyway, posting here was something of a last resort for me. I figured if Stormy saw I was alive and kicking she might try and seek me out. Thus far no such luck. I'm going to try to be a little more aggressive.
So, this is where I make my proverbial stand. I'll be waiting. You know where to find me.
To be honest, I was going to try and phase myself out of all this. I figure I pose almost no threat anymore. I can't run anymore. Honestly, I'm one of the more useless among us. I'm amazed I made it as long as I have. Anyway, posting here was something of a last resort for me. I figured if Stormy saw I was alive and kicking she might try and seek me out. Thus far no such luck. I'm going to try to be a little more aggressive.
So, this is where I make my proverbial stand. I'll be waiting. You know where to find me.
5/31/11
And somehow I come crawling back.
Hey all. I'm back. Good to hear isn't it? I suppose you all deserve an explanation. I owe you all that much.
Well, remember when I said I would stick by Stormy to the end? She had other ideas about what that meant. Namely that the end would involve my death. I'll give her this, she did a number on me. It's blind luck alone that I didn't bleed out on the floor of the shitty motel room we had been staying in. Honestly, I'm not entirely sure what happened. She got me while my back was turned. I suppose I should have seen that one coming, what with all the creepy tweets and stuff.
Now don't ya'll worry about me. I woke up in the hospital a few days after the incident. That was fun. I couldn't give them my real name for fear of them alerting my family. I don't want them to get involved in this if they don't have to be. Speaking of people I dragged into this, anyone heard from Riv lately? Anywho. I'm pretty sure the hospital people thought I was a prostitute or something. They can think what they want. It doesn't bother me at all. Ok, yes it does. It really, really does. But what can I do about it? Nothing. Damn.
So, I just want to be really fucking sure you guys understand this. I am not a prostitute. Are we all clear on this? Good.
Anywho, I was really stupid for a while. I thought, since the enemy thought I was dead I could just chill out for a little while. No need to get running straight away. As I said, that was stupid. There weren't any overt attacks, but I did start getting gifts. Azaleas to be exact. Now, there aren't many people who know that azaleas are my favorite. Back home just about everyone has an azalea bush outside their house. It's just the way it is, you know? I still don't know who was sending them, or why. I rolled on out of there quick as I could.
Now I'm holed up somewhere. I can't exactly tell you guys where. You understand I'm sure. Just know I'm alive, and more or less intact.
As for Stormy, I'm still looking for her. I'm beginning to lose hope on ever finding her. I don't know which direction she headed out in, and she had a pretty huge headstart on me. I'm not even sure if she's still alive anymore.
Well, remember when I said I would stick by Stormy to the end? She had other ideas about what that meant. Namely that the end would involve my death. I'll give her this, she did a number on me. It's blind luck alone that I didn't bleed out on the floor of the shitty motel room we had been staying in. Honestly, I'm not entirely sure what happened. She got me while my back was turned. I suppose I should have seen that one coming, what with all the creepy tweets and stuff.
Now don't ya'll worry about me. I woke up in the hospital a few days after the incident. That was fun. I couldn't give them my real name for fear of them alerting my family. I don't want them to get involved in this if they don't have to be. Speaking of people I dragged into this, anyone heard from Riv lately? Anywho. I'm pretty sure the hospital people thought I was a prostitute or something. They can think what they want. It doesn't bother me at all. Ok, yes it does. It really, really does. But what can I do about it? Nothing. Damn.
So, I just want to be really fucking sure you guys understand this. I am not a prostitute. Are we all clear on this? Good.
Anywho, I was really stupid for a while. I thought, since the enemy thought I was dead I could just chill out for a little while. No need to get running straight away. As I said, that was stupid. There weren't any overt attacks, but I did start getting gifts. Azaleas to be exact. Now, there aren't many people who know that azaleas are my favorite. Back home just about everyone has an azalea bush outside their house. It's just the way it is, you know? I still don't know who was sending them, or why. I rolled on out of there quick as I could.
Now I'm holed up somewhere. I can't exactly tell you guys where. You understand I'm sure. Just know I'm alive, and more or less intact.
As for Stormy, I'm still looking for her. I'm beginning to lose hope on ever finding her. I don't know which direction she headed out in, and she had a pretty huge headstart on me. I'm not even sure if she's still alive anymore.
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